i miss him

but not him.
i saw him today...
for the first time in...ages.
not clearly, but i saw him,
and i miss him.
and it didn't hit me until i saw him.
but we don't talk anymore.
this is all so confusing, considering my blog from yesterday.
now i'm obsessed with hanging around with those people
just so i have the slightest chance of seeing him.

i've just dug myself a grave.
and i won't be out of it until i talk to him.

it's not right.