nostalgia kicks in.

i was sitting with Grace at the docks yesterday, and we were discussing how much we've changed in less than a year. we were saying that we want to meet new people, we're getting tired of the whole Chester scene, it's the same cycle repeated over and over again. this time last year we were in the same boat as all the new Chester kids, we thought we were so cool, everyone liked us and we were all 'individuals'. I guess i just grew up in the end.

i don't know if me growing up has caused all the issues i have with pepople now though. i miss people i used to be friends with last year, i change too much, and that seems to effect people around me. i moved onto other groups of people, and left my good friends behind.
i want to apologize, but i never will. i don't know why, i just wont. i don't think they want to hear me apologize honestly anyway. i say alot of things i don't mean. i'm sorry.
growing up isn't worth it if you lose good friends.


this is what i looked like quite a while back now, it's strange how different i was.
i miss the friends i had then, the friends i had at the start of going to town, and how happy i was.
if i could combine those friends,
with the friends i have now i think i would be alot happier.

the most shocking thing is probably my eyes. i NEVER wear eye make-up now, except for a bit of mascara at the most.